These March Dayz...

Winter's been a doozy...but mayhap we are on the tail end of things.
One can always Hope, anyway.

At any rate ~ a cold and snowy March has been a million times better than a pukey, sick February...
I'll take it.  Begrudgingly...

Someone once said that "Childhood is a Journey; not a race."
This little space for recording our Days of Journey together has sat sorely quiet for many a week as of late.
But not for lack of living...

In all of its various forms.
One Family Day, we literally dug ourselves out of the snow and made a fire pit out back for making hotdogs and s'mores.  It was cold.  It was windy.  It felt a little Arctic...but we determined that we were going to play outside...and that WE WERE GOING TO HAVE FUN!!! Or else....

And we did.
And it was.
Until it wasn't.
So, then we came back inside and finished cooking our hotdogs in our downstairs fireplace.
We have a couple of little maples that we are attempting to tap for syrup.  While we see our friends pouring gallons of sap over into tubs that reside in their awesome homemade sugar shacks....our trees are plodding along with a good one inch of sap in each bucket.

Our yield is going to be Epic this year....
Crazy days.
Lazy days.
Hazy days...where when I lay my head down at night, I honestly can't even remember what I did for the day....

This is life, right now....
It is full, and it is good.
And oh so over the top chaotic-ally messy.....

I found this blog post today, and I loved it.
I thought it was super funny and super encouraging.

I think this generation of Moms has it way hard....

Too many things vying for our attention.
Too many programs we feel we are missing out on if we don't enroll our kids in them.
Too many perfect Facebook updates to read.
Too much comparing.
So many unrealistic expectations in which we are setting ourselves up for failure....
So much joy suckaging from our souls....

Man, I can barely keep my kids clothed.
Oh wait.....


So, here's the deal...
How about you do YOU...and I'll do ME.
We'll both do the very best that we can....and we'll both keep it as honestly real as possible...

We'll love and we'll laugh...and we'll ache and we'll cry.
You'll do some things way better than I will....and that's okay.
And maybe I'll be gifted in an area where you aren't so much.  That's okay, too.

"Nothing steals joy away from parenting than believing you're doing a terrible job at it." ~ Jen Hatmaker

Preach it, sister.
Truth.

And nothing much more makes us feel like we're doing a crappy job than when we compare ourselves to each other.  Good grief, what a nasty game.  And what a slippery path to walk.  If I look hard enough, I will always, easily find someone who is doing every single thing that I am doing...plus more.  And way better.  This sends me wallowing down the "I suck-eth" trail of Motherhood.  But, then again...if I look hard enough, I can probably find someone who isn't doing as much as I am...as well as I think I am...and so then I become the Snob of the Century.

Both, completely Miz Mamas...
These guys don't expect perfection.
These guys don't ever get perfection.
But, these kids know that I love them wildly.  Always and forever.  No matter what.

And guess what.....God feels the same exact way about us Mamas, too.
There's not a single thing we could do that would make Him love us more.
And there's not a single thing we can do that could make Him love us less.

He loves us through the mundane.
And He loves us through all of the madness, just the same...
Both the tame and the untamed moments...
Through the blissy...and maybe even especially through the messy.....

He is gracious.
He is tender.
His specialty is redemption....
"This is the most shocking truth;  The God who knows us truly, loves us still!" ~ Bryan Chapell

Rest in this, Sweet Sisters...
It is well with my soul.

Regroup.

My mom and dad took the kids for five nights (Count them - FIVE. NIGHTS.) this past week.
I know, right?  I am fully aware of the gift that I have in my parents.
They take them for almost a week every winter and every summer.

They ask to do this...
I don't even have to beg...


I hope I'm that cool of a grandparent when I get older.  I hope I'm not too old and washed up.
I also hope my kids don't have a lot of children...  Juuuust kidding.  Truly, I jest.
I fully intend to give this same gift to my kids, if they will let me.
Trader Joe's.
One of my most favorite places in the world.
A week of refreshment.
A week of rest.  Of spending quality, intentional time with your spouse.
Time to refuel.  To fill back up spiritually, emotionally, physically....
It's been amazing.
Old Port.  Delish coffee.

And it's been awesome for the kids, as well.

Both Kev and I have some of our most favorite childhood memories that include extended time with our grandparents.  Some of my most cherished memories that I hold the most dear were times spent at my Grammy's house on overnights.  And I did this all the way up through high school.  Simple pleasures like long, leisurely breakfasts.  Playing duets on the piano.  Grilled cheese sandwiches and chicken and stars soup for lunch.  Staying up late talking in bed together.  Watching movies.  Picking flowers.  Catching frogs in the pond and taking them up to the house to show her my treasure!  Those memories are forever, firmly implanted upon my soul - a part of who I am today.  And my parents are now giving my children those same, deep memories for themselves.  What a gift!
Coffee art.  
I hesitate to even write about it, because I am well aware of friends who don't have this same gift in their family members.  One of my dearest friends said to me the other day:  "I have a love/hate relationship with your mother."  I get it.  Mom's a rockstar.  A lot of grandparents don't -- or even, can't -- do this for their grown children.

I know.

And the real beauty behind it all, is that the kids live to go up there. They love it...and I swear, they don't even miss us.  Mom and Dad have a laundry list a mile long of things to do with them while they're up Home.  They've spent the night in Dad's little cabin out back; he's dragged them behind the four-wheeler on some sort of homemade contraption over the snow.  They've watched movies and ate an obscene amount of junk food. They've stayed up late.  Dad's done projects with them....  And Mom's even done school with them!
Afternoon tea at our Inn.  Super sophisticated we are....
My parents are amazing.
They are intentional with their time.
They've loved on my kids as though they are their own.
They have filled their love tanks full to the tippy top brim.
And in doing so, they have filled up mine, as well.
This is the gift I want to give to my own kids some day.
Duck Fat Sandwich Shop.
Still having trouble wrapping my brain around that one...
And so, while my parents loved on my babies...Kevy and I snuck away for a much anticipated Belated Valentine's Day getaway.  We blitzed it South just a wee bit and spent two nights and three days at a sweet little Inn and had the best time -- just doing nothing.  It was so blissy!  We slept in, we ate lots of beautiful food.  We poked around some fun little shops.  We took naps.  We went out for coffee in the evening - just because we could.

And we reconnected.
We assessed and reassessed.
We asked ourselves questions like:  How are we doing?  Where are we going?  How is our family? What things need to change?  What things are really great?  How are our jobs?  Where do we need to be more intentional?  What do we need to take off of our plates?  What should be added?  Where do we see ourselves in five years?  Are we good?  Are we connected?  Is there anything we need to talk about?

Holy Donut.  Made with mashed potatoes.
Hands down the BEST donut I have ever eaten in my entire life.
Well worth every. single. calorie.
Good questions -- always good to ask and re-ask every few months -- especially when life has you passing like ships in the night sometimes...and when your family has spent an entire month puking.  I also really love having a few days in a row of extended, uninterrupted conversation.  That was quite lovely....

And so....while the re-entry might be just a wee bit painful...and a little bit shocking to the senses....
We are ready.
We are filled.
We are connected.
And we are missing our Loves....

And I will look across the room at him - over the heads of three little boys and one crazy little girl....
I will have to raise my voice just a bit - over the bedlam and chaos that is our life....
We'll start a couple of conversations and then we'll give each other a knowing look that says:  "Let's wait just a couple of hours til the Hoolies are tucked in for the night...."

And then, we'll curl in close...for a night of sleep involving multiple interruptions for sure...and an early morning that will come ALL too soon....

...And I'll tell him this:  "It's crazy.  But it's good.  It's SO very, very good.  And I wouldn't have it any other way...."

We are blessed beyond measure.
Pressed down and overflowing...

To my parents, I thank you.
For loving on my babies.
For giving us this gift of Time together.
For filling love tanks full to overflowing....
We are so very blessed indeed.

Perspective. Round Three.

Welp...this morning, my two largest Hoolies were supposed to be hopping into the car with Grampy and Grammy Quint and heading up North for a few days of winter fun.  And early tomorrow morning, my two littlest Littles were supposed to kick it over to Grampy and Grammy Trundy's house for two nights....and tomorrow morning after the drop off, my Largest Love and I were supposed to go away -- by ourselves - just us -- for a belated Valentine's getaway of two nights to a sweet little Inn in Freeport.

However...
You know, Life happened.
Or in our case -- more puke happened.
We are currently on round three of this awesomeness.  Three.

We were good.  We were better.  There had been no puking for three days, and so we ventured out.  We went to a couple of parties.  We went to church.  We had people over.  We went to a bounce house and played.  We went.  We saw.  And we eased back into society.....   And now Kaden and London are both sick again.  Did we just pass our germies around to about 500 people...or did we get exposed again from somebody else?  Who knows.....

But, regardless, here we are again - round three.  So, needless to say, while our babies are still sick, we shall stay home and do our best to get this plague under control.  Instead of dressing up cute for my man and ordering out at a fancy restaurant...I'm here in my sweats, hair thrown up high, with a feverish baby permanently attached to my hip.  Instead of sleeping in until we feel like waking ourselves up...we'll sleep with the door open and stay half awake to make sure we make it in time to whoever needs us most in the night.  And instead of letting someone else clean up for us and do all of our dishes....we'll re-sanitize every inch of our house, and get those puke pots cleaned up for another round of glory...

Of such is this season.
And it's okay.
We'll set up a tent in the basement for the boys who are bummed about the change of plans.
We'll assure the biggest boy that he is more important than a hotel.
We'll baby the Baby, and we'll take turns with the snuggles...
We'll trade shifts in the night.
And he'll bring home pizza for dinner.
We'll take deep, cleansing breathes - and we'll keep our perspective.
Because what good will it do to complain?

And I'll still count the gifts, and I'll still live the joy...
Because this - right here - is my Life.  And it's good.
These are my Loves...and we walk it together.
And there are far worse things than a passing little sickness...

And in the grand scheme of things - it's just a weekend away - and we will reschedule.
Here....we are rich.  Today we are full...
In life and in Love...and with Him by my side...we are full indeed...pressed down and overflowing.

And..."An occasional burst of praise, in the midst of years of complaining, is not what is required.  Songs on rare, sunshiny days; and no songs when skies are cloudy - will not make a life of gratitude.  The heart must learn to sing always...Thanksgiving has attained its rightful place in us, only when it is part of all our days and dominates all our experiences." ~ J.R.Miller The Thanksgiving Lesson.


Post Sickness Celebrations!

After approximately 3 weeks of living with the Plague with a Capital P...we had ourselves three solid days without vomiting or any other sorts of other explosiveness, so I figured it was time we did some celebrating!

I LOVE loving on my family on Holidays that come with fewer expectations, than say some others.  I know that Valentines Day is commercialized...but my kids don't have the "gifty" expectations that come with Christmas - or even their birthdays.  All I told them the week before was that I love Valentine's Day because I LOVE loving on them...PLUS, Valentine's Day is Grammy Quint's birthday...AND they were coming to spend the weekend with us!  So, how much cooler and awesome could the weekend be than that?!

We were healthy.
Loved ones were coming.
A friend was even going to come to spend the night!
Those three things alone make life worth living!  Ha!
It's the little things, man, that make life Epic.

And so...
The boys and I lived in the kitchen for a few days - cooking and making messes together...making cards and little gifties in secret....planning a fun menu with all of Grampy and Grammy's favorite foodies...throwing up a decoration or two here and there...and we just had ourselves a good old fashioned:  "Happy Late Birthday to Grampy, Happy Valentine's Birthday to Grammy, and Happy Plain Old Valentine's Day to the Rest of Us!"

In lieu of a traditional birthday cake, on Friday evening, we let everyone build their own tortes with cut up cake, brownies, strawberries, pudding, melted frosting, reese's cups, and homemade whipped cream.  Everyone had their own little fluted glass which made things feel more festive and special...and everyone got to be their own artist...which my boys thought made things a lot more fun, as well!

The boys had a friend spend the night on Friday night, which has kind of morphed into a spontaneous yearly tradition, of sorts.  We never have sleepovers with friends, so this was pretty special.  We played a few card games at night, and then the boys crashed to the basement to play some of their own games, listen to Adventures in Odyssey, and just visit with each other all bundled around each other in sleeping bags and bunkbeds.  I find little boy conversations hilarious.  And I find Micah to be darling.  He lives with one, very calm, very sweet older sister.  When he comes to our home, he is a celebrity and is just about practically mauled during the entire duration of his stay.  He has zero breathing room, and he is such a good sport about it.  I literally have to remind my guys to give him some elbow room.
In the morning, I made Mom her favorite lemon poppy seed scones with lemon curd, and I had a few fun surprises set out on the table for the boys when they came upstairs.  Nothing expensive, nothing amazing...just a few tokens of love and fun.  I have never bought them those individual boxes of fun cereals before, so they thought that was pretty cool.  And I also gave them each their own solid candy heart.  I love how tiny, little things can turn an ordinary day into something fun and special.  I also love how many times I just said the word fun.....

After breakfast, I broke everyone up into teams to play a bunch of Valentine Minute to Win It games.  We played Large Ones (meaning us oldies) versus the Littles (meaning all of the Hoolie boys).  We played "Face the Cookie" where they have to get an Oreo from their forehead to their mouths; valentine heart stacks, valentine candy corn stacks, mad libs, word searches, unwrap a hershey's kiss with mittens on and eat it relays, sucking up valentine m&m's through a straw and dropping them into a bowl....all simple, mostly candy themed games, courtesy of Pinterest... in which my madre and my padre were super cool sports, as usual...and in which the Littles beat us by one. measly. point!  No prizes -  just the satisfaction of beating us fair and square.

We had a Valentine's High Tea for lunch -- minus the soup, which I believe comes with a true Tea.  I made homemade soft pretzels and chocolate chip cookies - more of mom's fave foodies...and then we had just a bunch of other simple foods:  egg salad sandwiches, strawberries and chocolate, crackers and cheese, sparkling cider, etc.  It's amazing how a little tablecloth, $2 cider, and sandwiches with the crusts cut off of them make things feel more special and festive.

Micah left for his house shortly after.  Mom and Dad headed downstate to visit my little brother, as well.  And we kicked it off to church where we rescheduled services to try and escape the crazy blizzard that was predicted for the following day.

Something about mixing things up, and having things at a different time with kind of last minute planning to get everything thrown together made things feel completely different. It was a blast, and I kind of loved hanging out with so many of my favorite people on one of my favorite days.  Afterwards, we got a super quick bite to eat on the way home together, and on the drive home all four kids fell asleep in the car.

The day was packed.
The day was full.
It was sweet.  It was special.
And little boys fell fast asleep with love tanks overflowing...


Cooking in the Kitchen.

From the time each and every one of my babies was old enough to sit up on their own, I have always, always, always had them in the kitchen with me.  I love cooking with my kids, and it's one of the ways that we have always bonded together.  Music blaring, them helping to measure and stir, me heaving deep cleansing breaths when the stirring gets over the top "vigorous" and all of my dry ingredients fly into the air......

It's our tradition.
London's been sick this week.  She put her boots on and crashed right here.

First they sit up on the counter beside me.  Then, they transition to sitting up on a stool beside me, until they've grown tall enough to stand down on the floor right next to me.  It's been fun watching their growth throughout the years.  We have had many a Math lesson in this room, teaching them to read measurements, or to learn how to double or to half a recipe to suit our cooking desires.
Kaden's been sick, too.
My goal has always been to have all of my kids become self-sufficient in the kitchen.  Not only do I want them to be able to cook an egg in a pinch if they're starving and Mama is unavailable for Maid Duty, but I also want them to grow up being comfortable reading a recipe, kneading a loaf of bread, using the oven - you know, all of those sorts of things that will make their wives rise up and call me Blessed.
Jesse hasn't been himself, either.
Well, as of late, my two youngest boys have become very imaginative and creative in their "cooking" desires.  Every Saturday morning, they watch Recipe Rehab on T.V., and this has sparked some creative juices to flowing, and so now for the past week, every single day of life they want to make a creation in the kitchen.

My Jesse is my Artist.  He really sees no need for following other people's ideas.  He likes to march to the beat of his own drum, and he likes to cook to the "words" of his own recipes.  He is in his glory when he is creating - full on Joy written all over his face - so I am trying to let go of a few of my kitchen reins and give him a little more cooking freedom.  A graduation of sorts from being Mama's Sous Chef and Right Hand to the Big Cheese every once in awhile.

I'm trying to be more of a "Yes" Mom.
This seems like an area where I could do this.
And as long as I can keep some semblance of control on the sizes and amounts of ingredients, the biggest negatives I see are:  an Epic kitchen mess (which he has been told he has to clean on his own), a few grocery dollars lost down the drain for the recipe Fails, and a few more grey hairs sprouting on the head of this Typist....
One of Jesse's "blender recipes" See the blender in the middle?
The drawings all around are of the "ingredients."
Sometimes, when I feel like being Awesome, I give him total and complete freedom to create.  This scores me awesome Mama Brownie Points even if I do lose a few more sanity nerves. Typically, I let him do this if he feels like creating some sort of treat.  His go-to method of operation is to raid the cupboards for any sort of snacky, treaty food -- throw it all in the blender with a bit of milk or yogurt, and usually it doesn't come out half bad.  It's hard to make something taste wretched if every ingredient going into the blender is junkfood.  Various versions of "milkshakes" we call these creations.  Why, just the other day we enjoyed a:  marshmallow, oreo, banana, peanut, vanilla, honey, applesauce, cinnamon Flurry of sorts.  Not half bad if you could get past the grit.
Well...
Now that he has his blender creations "mastered," he has wanted to move onto greater things such as Muffins!  He's drawn up some concepts, he's written a plan, and he wanted to fully execute a batch of awesomeness for the family just last night.

And, so here's where Mama's reins started to pull in just a wee bit.
I proposed a "blending" of our recipes.
This one was his.
(Actually, since writing this post, he has told me that this is actually his ice cream recipe....My mistake)

We had to have a bit of a sit down chat about first learning the basic essentials of baking before going Hog Wild in Creation Mode.  We talked about wet and dry ingredients, about ratios and how all things are not equal.  For example, if one were to do equal parts flour to equal parts baking soda the result would be disastrous.  He listened - albeit reluctantly - and agreed that "even though this way wasn't nearly as fun or as creative," he would go along for the ride in our first real baking lesson together.
 WHAT?!  Measuring cups?  That's no fun...
Seriously?  We read ALL of those words on that page?  Well, that's boring...
 
We combined our resources and "rehab-ed" a written recipe, so to speak.  Mine didn't call for bananas, but Jesse's did, so we added them.  His didn't call for vanilla, but mine did, and he was cool with that.  He had never heard of a "streusal topping" before, but he thought that was pretty cool.  I never thought of blueberry yogurt, but figured it couldn't hurt anything...

It was a creation!
Well, then, Ransom wanted in on the plans.
And he wanted his recipes to become part of supper plans, as well...
Somehow, I managed to convince him to add "pizza dough" to his collection so that we wouldn't have to do yet another brand new creation of glory, and he was fine with this plan as long as he could do all the measuring, all the stirring, and all of the kneading...

My kitchen floors were Epic by the time our evening was over...
I honestly love these moments.
I love these times in the kitchen...and flour covered floors are such a small price to pay for all of the whirling and swirling cozy memory making times that we have in here...
Now, we shall do a little more honing of our "recipe writing" skills...
And maybe we have a bit more of ratio and measurement learning still to go before we'll be ready to actually eat most of their "meals,"...

But the creation and the imagination are all half of the learning.
And most of the fun!

And I'm going to save these sweet little recipe books in my box of treasures...
The backwards numbers.
The depictions of ingredients.
The ideas that came from their sweet little imaginations...
Sweet simple savorings.
Sweet daily Joys.
My boys in my kitchen with their Mama.

These are the Days...