Shleepy Tired

....and if I had to admit it....a wee bit crabby.

Whew! Both of my boys had a rough night last night - for whatever reason - so I was awakened from a (VERY) deep slumber about six times. Not my fave. This girl loves her sleep. So, I feel like I'm functioning in a bit of a fog today.

One thing that I'm learning with two kiddos is that I need to give myself more grace and cut myself a little more slack than I used to. For example: the plan for supper tonight was going to be homemade chicken pot pie, potato rolls, and some sort of fancy delish dessert as Kev's friend has arrived. Instead, we're having fajitas and rice, and maybe cookies if I can get around to making them. Before two, my house would have been immaculate before company arrived. Last night I did a ten minute run through with the vac and gave a swipe at the furniture in the living room. Today I did the dishes in the sink and called it good. Before two, if a friend asked me to babysit on the day company was arriving I would never have dreamed saying yes. Today I thought, "Why not? I'm already half crazy - might as well go all the way!" Yup. I'm just trying to embrace the chaos and just roll with it. Some days are better than others, but I'm learning that I can go a long way in helping myself not get too crazy!

Big Doin's This Week!

It's gonna be a busy week - but such a good one!

First things first - yesterday Jesse gave his Momma a full belly laugh which was SO cute and yummy! (Never mind the fact that I'm the third person he's given it too - not the first - but hey....I'm secure in my Mommyhood!) So that was just precious!

But, on to the busyness of the week....

Well, on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday I'm getting trained to be a "Clarion Consultant." It's a whole involved leadership and team development process. Kev's already been trained, it's hugely impacted his life, and he loves it. So, I'm just excited to be able to travel this road with him and do it together. Once I'm trained, we'll actually be taking two of our friends through it as a married couple, so that will be great experience for me as an "Apprentice" and tons of fun, as well.

Because of this training, Kev's good friend Eric will be flying in from Florida to be trained as well, so that will be really fun. AND it's potato harvest up home (yup, they still have it) so Mom is going to be catching a ride down with a family up home, and she's coming to visit us for the whole week! GOOD TIMES! She'll get some good Grammy time in, and Kev and I might even get a date out of it!

And the icing on the cake of this week......the hubbies are watching the kids while my friend Rach and I get dinner and a movie tonight. Yup...it's gonna be rough....

Another Family Day

Today for our family day we decided to take a drive over to the Lancaster area. Both Kev and I absolutely love it over there - it's very soothing and calming to our souls. So peaceful, so quiet - so much land...and cows...and horses...and fresh produce.....and yummy farm smells. I really love the smell of barns and manure. Weird, eh?

It got us thinking about how much we'd love to own land again someday - lots of land if we're really dreaming. There is nothing that I would love more than to have acres of fields and wild flowers, a garden, a little stream....and I've always wanted really cute chickens that could just roam free all across our land!

I want my kids to grow up being able to just run around outside and to be able to roam and explore and conquer and imagine fun worlds! I'm getting a wee bit tired of the same old backyard with the same few rocks that we can turn over to find the same worms that we let go last week! This is why I love our trips to Lancaster. We just drive and dream and stop at all the little local farm stands to sample their yummy - and sometimes still dirty - produce. I love it!

It refreshes me and refocuses me so nicely - even with Jesse screaming much of the trip home! Good times......

Train 'Em Young!

As hunting season is upon us, I've been wondering what a year's difference will make with our little Kaden. Now that he's three and he understands a bit more about life, will it bother him if he sees that Daddy has shot a deer? How will the sight of blood affect him? Will it make him sad if he sees an animal that we read about all the time in his story books dead on our rooftop? You know - these are questions that I need to think through in order to prepare him for if and when the time comes!! His little heart is so tender and sensitive, I want to make sure that this won't bother him. As his Mommy, I want to protect him from unnecessary sorrow!

Well.....as we were driving through Core Creek Park last night, three deer ran across the road directly in front of us. Kaden pipes up from the backseat: "Hey, Daddy! Wouldn't it be fun to shoot one of those deer?"

Hm. He'll be fine.
Kev's so proud.

The Days Are a Blur

It's been awhile since I've updated. Lately, I can't seem to get the boys on the same nap schedule so I always have one awake these days. With Jesse being so "high maintenance," I really am trying to give Kaden my undivided attention during Jesse's naps so that he doesn't start feeling neglected! Because of this, my days are just kind of all blending together!

It's starting to feel a little bit like fall around here. It's still pretty warm, but the humidity is gone, and the days are just gorgeous. We're outside as much as we can be. Lots of walks, trips to parks, and bug & worm catching. Last night, Kev taught Kaden how to hit a wiffle ball out back. That was pretty cute! He was pretty proud of himself for hitting the ball so much, and he told me quite seriously, "Mommy, you're not very good at this!" And when Daddy tucked him into bed, he reiterated his point with: "Mommy's not a good as we are!" It's true.....I rot at the whole hand/eye coordination thing!

Other news: hunting season is upon us! Between bow hunting and rifle season, Kev is able to hunt five or six months out here! The man is stoked! He even convinced two husbands in our complex to take hunter's safety this fall. It's possible for him to shoot two deer out here, so we may have meat coming out our ears! I'm sure he'll post some pics for you, Ang! None of the boys - but hey, a deer is just as good, eh?! :0)

Update

We took Jesse to the doctor yesterday because he's been constipated for about two weeks. I took some measures last week to get him to go, but it has now been another eight days. So, we decided it was time to seek a professional before I took any other measures upon myself. Anyway, if ever your kids get constipated, here's the conclusion: an ounce of prune juice with an ounce of water twice a day for a week or so. If that doesn't solve the problem, cut all dairy completely out of your diet. So, we shall see what happens.

Other news. Jesse now weighs in at 18 pounds 10 ounces. I actually thought it was more on our scales here, so that's good news. He's only gained a pound this month, as opposed to one pound per week, so progress is being made. He is still completely off the charts, and they are going to keep an eye on him, but they are not worried at all right now. Yay.

Jesse also gave us our first really real belly laugh the other day. He did it two or three times when he saw our friend's daughter! She wasn't even doing anything silly, it just struck him funny! And for the life of us, we can't get him to do it again. But, it was so so so cute!!!

Day Trips

I am thoroughly convinced that our wee one is most content and happy when he is in the great outdoors! I always have the easiest days with him when we go on our day trips. Yesterday, Jesse had his first experience at the beach when we went with our dear friends Cory and Rachel to Long Beach Island. It was so much fun! We went to a secluded part of the Island where there were absolutely no people - it was like we owned the beach! The entire time, Jesse just laid on the blanket totally mellow and content, and then when it was nap time, I put him in his swing, and he slept for a good hour. Good times!

We left at 1:00 so the boys could nap in the car and so we'd miss the heat of the day. We didn't leave until dark, and it was so so much fun. Last week-end we checked out another state park and then walked around this fun little town, and the same thing happened with Jesse. He was mellow and happy the whole time. Hmmm.....bring on the day trips to the great outdoors!

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

I love that I have so many friends who are in the same stage of child-rearing life that I am in! Even those sans children are dealing with discipline and training issues with pets - (Esther and Jess - it's pretty close! :0) Anyway, just in the past couple of days I've talked with five friends who's children range in age from Jesse at three months to a five year old. Discussing parenting issues always helps to put things in perspective for me. First of all, it's always encouraging to know that nobody has a perfect child! But, it's also good to remind each other that even though short naps, biting, refusing to eat veggies, waking up multiple times at night, and the like are all frustrating and disconcerting, they really are such small problems to be dealing with when you think of some of the monumental things other parents are going through.

I'm so thankful that our family loves each other - that there is no one else we'd rather spend time with than each other, that our two boys are healthy, that Kaden LOVES being a big brother, that Jesse adores Kaden, and that I don't have to wonder if Kev loves me or if he'll ever leave me. There will come a day when we'll be dealing with much bigger issues with our boys - girls, bullies, peer pressure, etc., with our families - aging parents, sickness, death etc., and with other stressors that life will hand us..........and I will LONG for the day when all I really worried about was if Jesse was too chunky and if he would ever take a long nap for me!

Right now, I truly am living my dream, and I want to be constantly reminded of that. Being a wife and mother is what I have ALWAYS wanted, and now I'm getting to do it every day. These days will fly by all too soon, and I need to SAVOR these little gifts that we have been given in our sons.

Does it matter that Jesse is the size of an eight month old, that he never poops, and that he takes wretched naps for me?!!! Does it matter that Kaden sucks his thumb 24/7 and that he still has wet pull-ups every morning? Does it matter if I let my floors get so dirty sometimes that our feet turn black when we walk around in our bare feet? Sure!! :0)

But, in the grand scheme of life......nah - not that much!

And, p.s. - for those of you coming over tomorrow - I was able to scrub my floors today. All is well in the world. :0)

Miracle of Miracles!

We have had a break through today folks! I'm not getting my hopes up just yet, but for Jesse's afternoon nap, he is going on two hours!!! Whoo-hoo! He woke up forty-five minutes into it - just like he always does - but after just five or ten minutes of crying, he fell back asleep, and he is in la-la land even as I post! Heavenly day, I'm so excited......but not TOO excited, just in case this was a rare moment. But I know that he can do it now! Whoo-hoo! My childless friends, I'm sure this probably seems like no big deal to you, but I assure you - it's big doings! It means afternoons of getting things accomplished, of quiet, quality uninterrupted devotions, of supper being made by suppertime, and (gasp!) maybe even a little bit of scrapbooking. But, like I said.....no huge celebrations yet. Just one more baby step of victory!

The Magic Month of Three!

Jesse is three months old today, and he is a totally different baby than he was even a month ago. I don't know what the deal is - I think Kev and I just make really fussy newborns or something. But, both of our boys were absolute wrecks the first three months of their lives. And now - Jesse has totally evened out. He is pleasant and calm most of the time, he is fairly easily soothed when he does get upset, and he is no longer a screamer every evening from six to eight! I can actually put him down for long periods of time and he is entertained by his playmat and his swing, and he is at least resigning himself to the fact that stroller rides could possibly be a pleasant experience!

During the first three months the jury was out - it was touch and go for awhile. But, I guess we've all reached our verdict.....we'll keep him!

Happy Labor Day!

I don't know about the rest of you, but we did not have a very "laborious" long week-end. It was actually quite lovely. On Saturday, along with our friends Cory and Rachel and their little girl, we went to our favorite State Park again to have a picnic and spend the day. That place is a little boy's paradise! We caught a huge water snake, tons of toads and crayfish, Daddy caught three sunfish on his fly rod, and there are just so many places to explore and get all wet and dirty! Jesse loves to be outside, so he was really pleasant and took another long nap in the swing. I was able to get some good quality time in with Kaden looking for crayfish, bugs, and toads while he napped, so that was really nice.

Then on Sunday, we went to church. Jesse did great in the nursery, and actually slept most of the service. Kaden and I found a bunch of toads in the church lot as well, so he was totally pumped! That was fun. We had a really relaxing afternoon, and then when the boys woke up we went to Target and then got a bite to eat. Once again, Jesse was just so pleasant and content in his carseat while we shopped and ate!

And yesterday, after Kev's classes (so, I guess he labored a little!) we went for icecream and then to Core Creek to fish until the sun set. The boys and I spent most of our day outside yesterday. It was so warm and breezy. The humidity has just about gone now, so the weather is really really nice here. We went for a long walk in the morning, then we went next door to the park. While Kaden looked for bugs, I glanced over at Jesse on the blanket, and he had totally fallen asleep! I tell you - this kid loves to be outside. He's so content and happy out there. Anyway, it was just a really great weekend all around. Restful, lots of time spent with family and friends, and lots of time spent being outside enjoying God's creation.

My Oldest.....

I have been so thankful for our little Kaden lately. He has such a tender heart and a really sensitive conscience. There have been several times this past week where he has come to me and confessed things that I never would have found out about - yet he still wanted me to know. The other day I was babysitting a friend's little boy, and I set out some grapes on the edge of the table that were cut in half. I told Kaden that he could have more whole ones if he wanted, but the cut up ones were for Reid.

I went into the living room to feed Jesse and Kaden walked over to me with this sheepish smile on his face. I could tell something was up, so I just asked him if he was being a good boy or if he had done something naughty. He said, "I'm being a good boy, Mommy." So, I simply smiled at him and replied, "Okay Honey, I believe you." He looked at me for a split second and then his face got really sad and he confessed, "I just ate one of Reid's grapes."

So precious. He didn't have to say anything and I would never have known. And really - it was only a grape. But then again, it's so much more. It's about obedience and honesty and integrity - even at a really young age. And it's about seeking to bless Jesus and Mommy and Daddy. Kaden is not perfect by any means, but we are really starting to see more and more the older that he gets the desire to be truthful and a really tender heart and sensitive spirit. I pray this stays with him the older he gets, and I pray that he always wants to make Jesus happy - even when Mommy and Daddy aren't looking - FOREVER!

Truth be told, Jesse will most likely want to follow Kaden's lead far more than he'll ever want to follow ours. In all seriousness, Kaden has a pretty big burden of responsibility on his shoulders in being the "big brother" to however many siblings come down the pike. I want him to understand this now - while he's still only three - and realize that his siblings will be watching him and will be wanting to act just like him. I don't expect perfection. I never will. For now, I'm just loving these moments of sweetness that make me so proud, and I'm praying that he'll always stay tender.

Wedding Bells!

Well, my little bro is engaged! Who would have thought?! He called us last night on his way up home to share the news with the fam. He's pretty pumped and so are we. Kev and I got to meet Julie for the first time when we went home in August, and from the first minute we laid eyes on her, I knew that they were a good fit for each other. She is a great match - both for him and for our family, and that says a lot! She is so down to earth, what you see is what you get, she really loves Aaron, and most importantly, she's truly in love with the Lord. Pretty cool. They're talking a first of the year wedding - at the latest, Spring - so things will be moving pretty quickly from here on out. Sigh! sigh. My little brother is all grown up.........