A Song for His Babies...

I can't remember what my life was like
Without you here....
It must have been kind of quiet...
Daddy & Kaden - 9 years ago.

People said -
You're life will change.
And they were right -
And now I have three little boys by my side  (and a little girl!).

Let's go explore this universe together.
Do you see that sunset God made for you?
Roll over the rocks and find those worms.
Don't eat them...'cause God made those too.
Daddy, Kaden...and super mad Baby Jesse.

We're on an adventure -
We'll climb trees together.
This is my first time -
to have three little boys by my side (and a little girl!).

It's that smile that can turn my day around -
Remind me what life is all about.
Little hug around my neck -
Makes me do an attitude check.
Daddy and Ransom - 1st few days home.
And even though my Daddy died
There's no reason to fear - Jesus is on my side.

And He's teaching me -
How to be
The best Daddy.....that I can be

I'm learning from the best Daddy.....

And I wouldn't trade this for the world...
No I wouldn't trade this for the world ---
Daddy & London - 1 Day old.

Wouldn't trade those little hugs
Wouldn't trade those big old smiles
Wouldn't trade those big old laughs

Cause it'd be far too quiet.....

(Written by Kev when Kaden was just a toddler...)

#5141.  No Daddy of his own...he looks to the Ultimate Father as his example...
5142.  A man whom I would be honored if my sons grew up to be like.
5143.  Tough...yet oh so tender.
5144.  Not afraid to say he is sorry.
5145.  Hands on...involved...taking his role of "Daddy" so very seriously.
5146.  Free with his "I love you's."
5147.  Free with his encouragement and his praise.
5148.  Gentle with his critiques.
5149.  An awesome example of how a husband should treat his wife.
5150.  One whom I am so proud to call Husband and Best Friend.

~ My Joy Journey...

Today.

Today is "National Go Search for Your Sanity Day."
At least in my house.
This picture has NOTHING to do with this post.  I just love brand new crayons.
This past week with it raining every single day but one, combined with a baby who chose two nights in a row to wake up every two hours for some reason, coupled with my two youngest boys going through a nit-picking-each-other-at-every-turn stage....on top of trying to keep the house "show ready" for anytime anyone feels the urge to come and have a look-see....all of that combined with me turning on a burner for tea, but instead frying my roasting pan because I turned the wrong one on....with putting a dozen eggs on top of our van to gift to Grammy and having them fly off the roof halfway down the road.... found Kev asking me one morning (like he always does before heading to work):  "How are you doing this morning, Honey?"  And me responding:  "Methinks I'm going to be needing a wee break in the near future.  I can feel it in my bones...I'm starting to twitch."

My Girls.  They soothe me.  And make me laugh.
 This happens every so often....as I'm sure it does for every Mama.
Please say it does....happen to every Mama....
Can I get a witness??  Crickets chirping?!....

Anyway...it does for me.
And when it does, I find that an evening out with another woman - either just grabbing a bite to eat or watching a movie...or talking intelligently and uninterrupted for a few hours does the soul good and allows me to return home feeling human and sane.
My eggs.  In which I broke every. single. one.  Sorry, Ladies.  Mama is tired.
And typically, when I voice this need, Kev replies with a:  "You say the word, Honey...and I'll make it happen."  He rocks like that.  Well, this time he must have heard something a little different in my voice because he shot me off a text from work saying:  "How about this?  We'll drop the boys off at Grampy and Grammy's tomorrow at 4:00 so that we can go on a date....and they can spend the night....and then I will pick them up on my way home from work the next day."

Hoooo-ly Hannah.
That man is hot.
And his Mama rocks.
A whole entire day to myself...(well, just me and my wee bitty...)
My peas.  Just about the only thing I got in early this year.
So, we had ourselves the loveliest of dates last night...and then he brought me coffee in bed this morning.  London gave me four hour stints between nursing last night so I actually feel human today...and now it's just the two of us with an entire day (well, until 4:00 or 5:00, anyway) stretching out before us to do whatever I please!!!  My goodness.  I'm not quite sure what to do with myself.

But, I do believe a nap is in order.
And probably more purging to get ready for a yard sale and a house sale.
Maybe some exercising without one...or three Hoolies hanging off of me while I do it.
Some reading?  Scrapping?  Blogging?  (check).  Gardening?
Staring into space listening to the deafening silence?
My beans.  Just barely peeking through the ground.  I love this...

Heavens.  The world is my oyster.
Whatever that means.

When I told my Mom what Kevy and his Mom had gifted me with, she said this reminds her of what my Dad's Father used to do for his Mom.  Grampy would come home from work and all three of the boys would be sitting out on the steps.  He'd ask them what was going on, and they would say they had gotten too rowdy so "Mama had kicked them outside."  Ha!  She had a brand new baby girl after having three boys, too.  And I guess every so often, he would gift her a day without the Hoolies running wild as well.

Maybe it runs in our family...this National Day of Sanity Finding.
Oh hello, bitty potatoes...

Either way...it doesn't take a whole lot for it to return.  Just a few hours to sit and stare.  Only a few moments woven together of blessed silence.  And just a wee bit of time for there to be no messes of Epic porportions.  I will be ready for them to come home to me.  In all of their wild and crazy glory.
Mama makes cream.  Picture proof.
My baby.
She beckons me...so I must be off.
And I may or may not leave the bedroom once I go up there.
It's 10:00 in the morning, after all.  Sounds like naptime...

Father's Day. A Few Days Early...

I am a Mama tired...
And this is weather wretched...
And my boys are crazy cooped up...
And I am so. very. tired. of. this. rain.....  It kind of bums me out....
My sweet little patch of rhubarb.
So, yesterday the boys and I decided to do something about it.
Rather than sit and wallow in our tiredness...and crankyness...and irritation at the weather...& each other..
We decided to get out of the way of ourselves...
Cooking....with poison ivy hands.  Mmmm-mmm.
And we decided to get our party on and surprise Daddy with an early Father's Day present.

We're finding that people are more likely wanting us to show our house on the weekends, so that means we have to make ourselves scarce during that time...so who knows if we'll even be home on Sunday...

(I will share more of our story in a later blogpost.  We are not going far...)

So, last night was Father's Day in our home.
And it was nice.
See that fishy on the counter?  He died yesterday.  Praise Jesus.
London cooperated by having a lovely morning nap so that the boys and I could make Daddy a pie.  We made a rhubarb banana pie with spelt crust.  Sounds weird...but it tasted lovely, and it was super healthy as far as pies go...

The boys made cards...
Above:  Kaden's card...they always involve fishing.
Below:  Jesse's banner....and portrait of Daddy.  Scary...

And I interviewed each of them with questions about Kevy.
Courtesy of Pinterest....thankyouverymuch...
 Above:  Jesse's interview.
My favorite answers:
Daddy knows a lot about:  "That we're stinky."
Daddy likes to wear:  "Underpants."
My favorite thing about Daddy:  "That he loves me."
Above:  Ransom's interview.
My favorite answers:
What color is his hair:  "Green.  No...black."
What does he like to wear:  "Dresses."  Whaaaaa?
He always tells me:  "Don't scream and don't spit."  True. Dat.
My Daddy is happy when:  "I don't know.  Maybe when he eats corn."
Above:  Kaden's interview.
My favorite answers:
How old is Daddy:  "I think he's in his 40's."
My favorite thing about Daddy:  "That he's nice to me."
He always tells me:  "To reel faster."  (My boy tends to get his line caught on bottom.  A lot).

And then!
My crowning achievement of the day...
I made one of Kev's most favorite meals:  chicken gyros with homemade taziki sauce and homemade naan.
Deee-lish.

It's a teensy bit labor intensive, but sooo worth the effort.  The only thing that I would do differently next time, is I would do a double batch of everything:  chicken, sauce, and bread.  I am very much a fan of leftovers and I fully believe that time is money....so if one is going to take the time to make one batch of something...why not make two...or even three in my book.

Lessons learned, baby.
That won't happen again.
There was enough for Kev to take in his lunch today, but that. was. it.

Go on over to my friend's blog to get the full lowdown on how to make everything.
Thank you, dear friend!  My entire family rises up and calls you blessed!
You rock.  Very much indeed.
One to eat and one to share.

So, it was a lovely evening.
A yummy supper.  A delish dessert.  Sweet little cards read.
And then an early bedtime for all of us..

Fabulous.
Happy Early Father's Day, my Love.
We all love you so....

And how does this man make me feel loved?  Well...Methinks he could sense my growing angst with the weather...and with my Hoolies running wild...and getting under each other's (and my) skin......or maybe it was just that I came right out and told him that my skin is starting to crawl just a smidge.  Either way - that man just sent me a text saying he's asked Grammy and Grampy if the boys can spend the night some night this week and spend ALL day the next day with them as well whilst I go and search for my sanity...AND he's bringing home a pizza for a stay at home date night tonight.

Goodness gracious me...that man is Hot.

How we Do It...

This past week-end, the two largest Hoolies and Kev went on their annual "All Boys, No Girls Allowed" Fishing trip with some friends where they were fish slayin' maniacs and where they could run wild in all their glory.  Before they left, Jesse talked to me on the phone and said:  "I miss you, Mama.  I really wish you could come...but you know the rules.  No girls..."

To which I replied:  "No worries, Love.  You go and have yourself a blast during this week-end of predicted torrential rain."  And they really did.  I however, was quite thrilled with the fact that I am indeed... a girl.

So, me and the two littlest Littles kicked ourselves up to the County for London's debut of a rollicking redneck good time.  I shall now give you a documentary - in mostly pictorial fashion - of how we do "fun" when we kick ourselves up North:

Well, first of all, and of utmost importance....

All of my babies have to be initiated into the the four-wheeling nap time ride of wonder.  Back when Jesse was an infant, this was the ONLY thing that would get him to stop his screaming.  Every single one of my babies has been lulled to sleep on one of these things.  It's a Booker tradition.
This is not how she rode, by the way.  I either wear my babies in snuglies right up close to my body, or I hold them in my arms while on back of the wagon.  And all of my babies have also fallen asleep to the tune of my Mama saying:  "I sure hope they don't get brain damage on this thing.  ROYCE!!!!  Slow down!!  We've got a baby on back of here....."

It's how we do it.
And I love it.
It's one of my very most favorite things in the whole. wide. world.

London was just having a little snooze there while we were getting some sustenance:
Another thing that we do is we always stop along the trail somewhere for a redneck snack of glory.  And this snack always and most certainly involves:  grapes, sharp cheese, crackers, and sardines.

Kevy-Poo is not a fan of this redneck snack, and my Dad teases him something awful.  Kev will eat just about anything in the whole wide world - but smoked sardines and oysters are not his cup of tea...

This is how we do it:
And it's delish.
Dainty finger foods of yum....which also give one wondrous breath, might I add.

On this four-wheeler ride, we decided to ride a couple of towns over to where my Great Grammy Simpson lives, so that my wee little baby girl could meet her Great Great Grammy face to face....and so that I could hug and kiss this sweet woman and have her hug and kiss me and mine.
I think they liked each other.
Grammy kept saying:  "She's such a nice baby.  Isn't she awful nice?"

We think so...
Great Grammy is One hundred and two.  And a half.
She rocks.

Okay.
Another fun thing that I like to do when I go up Home is to go and visit my big brother Clay and see what sorts of shenanigans he's been up to.  One never knows what this man has up his sleeve.  Like a little while ago, he got his two kids a puppy each.  And then a few more months later this happened:
And then...just recently they decided to buy this:
I love her, and I want one.

 I gave her kisses and hugs...and she's going to have a baby.
And I would like one of those, too.

This is what we like to do on rainy days:
Tea parties with lots of treats.

And this is what happens to my three year old when he so desperately wants to go an adventure to find turtle eggs with Grampy....but it's naptime...but "I'm not thleepy 'cause I'm a big boy..." :

Needless to say...he didn't see any turtle eggs...but we didn't either, so he didn't miss much.
Oh, you like Dad's truck?  It's how we do it up there.
You never know what you might need...
And this is what a really rockin' father looks like when he knows his only-est daughter is coming home...and there is only one thing in the whole wide world that she craves and that she is completely addicted to.  His and only his homemade brown sugar fudge.

And so he made it.  Campfire style:
 Rachael Darrah, this is the picture that I tried to text you...

Ooooh Baby... this stuff is amazing.
My dad doesn't use a recipe, however - so his fudge is impossible to replicate.  His instructions go a little something like this:  "Cook it till the tadpole stage...then add the rest of the ingredients...and stir it till your arm gets tired."

Very detailed, Daddy-O...
It's how he does it.
This entire pan was consumed in two days.
No joke.
It's how we do it.
And this is another fun thing that we like to do:

This is Dad's homemade trap that we set with peanut butter and jelly sandwiches to catch us some skunks or  coons.  The boys love it.  We didn't catch anything this time.  But, if we did, we'd load it on back of Dad's truck and take it on over to "Skunk Hill" to let it go.

Redneck fun.  I tell you what...there's nothing like it!
This visit, most of the weekend was super cold and rainy.
Very un-summer like.
So, you want to know what we did?  We made homemade coffee ice cream!

Obviously....
Because, doesn't everyone make homemade ice cream on cold, dreary days....especially after eating a double batch of brown sugar fudge?  It's how we do it.....
But, I think one of the things that I most love about going up Home to see my family....is my family itself.
I especially love cousins who are more like brothers who stop by for lunch and baby snuggles....
And I love that our house is always full of loud and people and crazy and fun...
I love other cousins who come over at the drop of a hat when they find out that there is a new baby cousin to hold...and other cousins who make a special effort to stop in just to hold the baby for a second before they head downstate for the weekend...and still other cousins who have already been downstate and are totally and completely pooped - but they still stop over just to say hi.  I love that.

That's family love.
And that's how we do it.

Holding Loosely...

Sometimes...

Sometimes, we need reminders.  (And by "we," I mean "me.")
We need reminders of what's considered a really "big deal" and of what might just be a bump in the road.

We need reminders of why we are here in the first place...
And of what's really going to last.

We need reminders that life is all about chapters and seasons...
And some of these chapters might be really great - so we should enjoy them.
...and some might be a bit of a bummer.  And that's okay, too.  Because...that's life.

That's why I tell my kids that it's so utterly important that they marry the right person.  Marriage is this crazy, wild journey that you take with someone - through the highs and the lows, the mundane and the madness, the cozy and the crazy, the chaos and the boring - and it's all good....and it's all okay....if you're taking that journey with someone who you're crazy wild about.  Someone with whom you would follow to the ends of the Earth.  And someone who you know - beyond a shadow of a doubt has got your back.... and you've got theirs.

Then - whatever life throws at you...
Or whatever you choose to throw back at life ~

If you're doing it together...and most importantly...if you have Jesus...
Well... then life becomes an adventure.
And it's not nearly as scary.

And then when change happens - for those of us who really don't like it so much - it's not as big of a deal...

These are good things to be reminded about.

So...
When you decide to take a crazy, wild jump into the great unknown...
And when you've got friends and family who love you regardless.
When you decide to walk away from one chapter...and walk toward another...
And when some may think you're a little crazy...but you're in this thing together..

When you are reminded again that life is not about "stuff" or things...
or money or wealth.

And when you don't really know what the future holds...but you know WHO holds the future...

When you get an opportunity to step away from the rat race and to let some things go...Well, that's a whole lot better than gripping things fist tight.

And it's a whole lot easier to say good-bye to one chapter and hello to another.  And everything is easier when you know WHO you can trust..

And so....
Here's to another chapter for the Bookers...

"We must learn to hold everything loosely...everything....  Why?  Because the Father may wish to take [something] back for Himself, and when He does, it will hurt you if He must pry your fingers loose....  So, remember...hold everything loosely.  Everything." 

~ Corrie Ten Boom ~

That last letter is really an "E."  The poor block has just gotten dropped one too many times...
And quite honestly?
What is HOME anyway?  What is the definition of HOME - really and truly?

I know...for me, anyway...
HOME is anywhere my Loves and I are.....TOGETHER.

Lessons learning.....
To be continued...

Dirt and Life.

Sooo.....
"Life" has been happening lately...
Like crazy, spinning, whirling, trying to keep my head above water LIFE.

But, at the same time ~
Growing, trusting, stretching, and life lessons learning LIFE, as well.
Growth is good.  On so many levels.
I find that I don't often grow much unless I am stretched...and unless I am made to trust more deeply.
I grow the most when I completely let go of the reins, and when I hold things loosely...
Sometimes I'm not so good at that...

But speaking of growth:
Behold, my sugar snap peas.
And, behold, my redneck trellis of string...
And so, because of "life"....

I was actually tempted to just leave the rest of my garden alone for this season.  I was going to stick with the peas and beets that were already planted, and just let the rest of it go.

But, I have this Lew in my life...

And he came over on Monday bound and determined to till my garden.  I told him about all of our goings on, and he said:  "Well....I'm still going to till your garden.  It'll be good for the soil."  And till it, he did...
My sweet little rows of beets...
Dee-lish.
My sweet little Chicky Bitties...
Trying desperately to sneak into the garden.
Two of my sweet, little boys of deliciousness...
Getting as filthy as they possibly can.

And so...well, one thing led to another...
Lew got the garden tilled, and then he promptly declared that it was time to plant the corn.
Soooo.... the corn got planted.
Then I had to go inside to feed London, so I left the Hoolies out there with Lew.
And when I came back, He and Jesse and Ransom had not only finished the four corn rows, but they had also planted an entire row of beans AND potatoes!
 Lew said:  "I've got no idea how your beans are going to turn out.  I let Ransom plant that row!"
I love this picture.
I love Lew.
He loves my boys.
And my boys love him.
And so, by the time our sweet little afternoon was over...somehow....some way....
Corn, beans, cucumbers, potatoes, two types of lettuce, leeks, basil, carrots, and kale got planted.
I'm not sure how it happened.
It just did.
I am one with the soil.
Tomatoes, green peppers, pumpkins, and squash still have yet to be planted.
Not sure what life thinks about that...

But, I do know one thing.
Dirt is good for the soul...
And Lew is good for my heart.