Finding our Groove.

We are slowing easing back into life again.
Finding our rhythm and getting back to our norm.

I, for one, have been living in the same pair of p.j. pants for the past three days.
Still a bit bleary eyed, but getting there.

It's been fun to watch all three boys settle back into their favorite little spaces and greet all of their toys and books...and pets....with new appreciation, and much, um, enthusiasm!

I'm pretty sure the chickens missed the boys equally.
Er, not so much.
Poor girls...

And this little cat of ours?

Holy Hannah - we could hear him meowing inside while we were walking up the steps when we first came home. He greeted us right at the door and has been a perpetual shadow wherever I walk. At bedtime, he can either be found wrapped around Kaden's head, or weaseling his way under my covers and begging to share my pillow with me.

I can't say that I really mind.
Kevy begs to differ.....

But, seriously, how can one resist this fat little ball of fluff?
He has it rough, this little Smudge of ours.

And so, we are easing in. Slowly and steadily.
Preparing to kick it into high gear and get completely back on track next week.
But, these past few days have been good for us.
Resting and refueling.
Reconnecting and rebuilding.

Happy weekend, friends!

Once Upon a Time...


One morning, a little over a week ago now, we woke up at Dark-thirty, left our sweet little abode, little boys, little Smudge, and the light of our chicky coop glowing with its heat lamps, stepped into the airport by 5:00 a.m. and then flew cross country to the other side of the good old U.S. of A...

We saw the sun rise from up in the sky, watched until the houses were covered in clouds, and then settled in for a full day of flying, layovers, mucho reading and games of Cribbage whilst we waited, and many (many!) cups of coffee.

The flight out was really no big deal. It was pretty much a straight shot. We did lose three hours with the time change, but we arrived feeling pretty rested. It was the flight home that was a bit of a doozy. Before we even took off the ground, we sat on our plane for two hours because there was something on the plane that needed fixing. So, needless to say, the entire airline missed their connection in Michigan. Good old Delta put us up for the night and gave us a couple of meal vouchers. But the pain in the neck was that they couldn't get us a flight home until 8:00 the next night.

Well, that wouldn't do, because we'd already been away from our boys for a little over a week, and neither of us felt a great urge to whittle our day away wandering around the Michigan airport. So, Kevy found us a flight that would have us home by 6:00 - the only kicker being we'd have to switch airlines and go through security all over again in New York - with only about 45 minutes to do all of this.

We were sprinting from one connection to the other, racing through security, and running full tilt to find our gate. Thankfully, our connecting flight was running a wee bit late, so we made it with time to spare. I totally felt like we were on the Amazing Race. It was very exciting.

Anyway, back to California.
The land of sunshine and oranges.

And mountains for their backyards.

I'm pretty sure I ate about ten fresh oranges every day that I was out there. I just couldn't get over it. They have orange trees like we have apple trees. Seeing as how I have only seen an orange tree one other time in my life, whenever I saw one laying on the ground, I promptly picked it up, peeled it, and ate it right there on the spot.

The natives thought I was crazy, but I told them that they were crazy for not making freshed squeezed orange juice every. day. of. their. lives. Heaven in a cup, man. They also had grapefruit, pomegranate, avocado, and lemon trees everywhere surrounding the campus. Garden of Eden, Baby.

While it's their winter right now, and many walk around with jackets on in the mornings, and some even wear boots during the day because it's "chilly," for us Maine-ers, the mornings felt like a crisp early spring day, and the afternoons heated up to a lov-O-ly 75 degrees, which is a beautifully fine summer day for us. So, there were no complaints here. But no takers from anyone out there to take us to the beach, either. "It's WINTER you guys!! Are you CRAZY? We don't go to the beach in the winter?!?!!"

While most of our time was actually spent inside in various and sundry meetings from morning until night, our last day there we did get to go and play in their mountains. We went on a sweet little hike about five minutes away from campus up to a beautiful little waterfall.

I was on a quest, per Kaden's request, for a little lizard to bring home. I figured if I actually managed to catch one, I could smuggle it home in my carry-on. Kevy wasn't nearly as enthusiastic as I was, but it never became an issue because we never saw one. I settled on some candy for him instead. Both boys were fine with the compromise. No where near as exciting, but one less cage to clean, I guess.

It was encouraging and refreshing - and a little overwhelming, to be honest - to be around so many crazy, sold out Kingdom thinkers. Out there, we were swallowed up in different cultures, edgy creativity, and people who aren't afraid to take risks and who aren't afraid to fail. Ralph Winter, the founder of the organization once said: "Risks are not to be determined in the probability of success but by the value of the goal. I am willing to fail." He was a brilliant man who was ahead of his time, and he bridged the two worlds of Academia and Practician. He was a thinker and a do-er. An innovator and an activist.

The U.S. Center for World Mission is not a sending agency. Rather, it's a Think Tank for identifying barriers and pursuing solutions toward Kingdom breakthrough. Questions they are always asking are: Where are the gaps? What's NOT being done? What's not working? And is there a better way to do what we're already doing?

Someone else once said: "Never do things others can or will do, if there are things you could do that others can't or won't do."

I love that.
I love being a part of that.

And I love expanding my world, getting fresh perspective, and being reminded that it's okay to take risks. It's okay to do things that other people might question or not understand. It's okay to try new things, to seek out new solutions, and to maybe do things that might seem a little edgy to others. And the funny thing is, what might be considered edgy and crazy way up here in Maine, is per the usual out there in Southern California. That brings with it a measure of comfort and confidence, as well.

In some ways, I felt a little like Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz being swallowed up in culture and differences and brilliant ideators. That place truly is a "think tank" in every sense of the word. There is no "one way" of doing anything out there!

One tiny example is the way all of the missionaries approach schooling their children. There are two International Schools right on campus. One uses the Sonlight Curriculum, as it was birthed out of that organization, while the other is a completely organic, creative, totally out of the box three day a week schooling approach. Some families homeschool. Some send their kids to a Chinese immersion school a few miles away. Some do a combination of homeschooling and regular school. And some do something different for each one of their kids. The options are really limitless, and everyone does what it right for their own family. I love that.

So....it was an encouraging week. It was challenging and eye opening. And it was nice to actually spend a few days with our family from afar. Who knows what the future holds for us - whether we'll find ourselves out there someday or not. I honestly have no idea what the Lord has in store for our little family.

In the meantime, I am also loving being back home in po-dunk Maine and seeking to expand the Kingdom in my own little sphere of influence right here in my backyard. Striving to hold loosely, to listen well, and to truly see....

It's all good....

Happy Heart's Day.


It's Valentine's Day.

One of my favoritest Holidays. Ever.
I love a good reason to celebrate.
And just something simple - but out of the typical norm - makes anything special.

Like an el-cheapo tablecloth and little bags full of tiny treasures.
A lollipop. Gum. Some funky taffy.

And hot chocolate for breakfast. With heart-shaped marshy-mallows.

And (an attempt at) heart-shaped pancakes.

And a Family Day - smack dab in the middle of the week - of playing and eating outside with no work and no naps and no school.

Just because we can.

And just because our little family has been away from each other for the longest amount of time that we have ever been separated. Ten days and nine nights we have been apart. And we have missed each other dearly.

So today we play.

And today we love WELL.
Because we have missed hard.

We were in California with our mission's organization.
They were up north with Grampy and Grammy.
That was a whole lot of miles between me and my boys....

So, it has been a happy, simple day.
A day of easing back into life together as a family.
And a day where all five of us celebrate life and love.

A great day.

* * * * *
2501. An empty house full of life again.
2502. Valentine surprises.
2503. Hot chocolate and pancakes.
2504. HOME.
2505. And Smudge.
2506. Grampy and Grammy who loved full and well.
2507. Many, (many!) unsolicited hugs and kisses. Love.
2508. A very full bed first thing this morning.
2509. Bonfire, camp coffee, and lunch outside.
2510. Swinging and sliding.
2511. Simple things.
2512. Fresh perspective.
2513. Lew for chicky sitting.
2514. School Holiday.
2515. Together again.

Waiting.

...for the snow to melt away.

...for spring and HEAT.

...for outside play.

...for boys to run so wild and free.

...for sun to shine all over me.



...but until then, we'll sit and wait.

...and greatly we'll anticipate.

...those summer days of fun and play.

...where we will be outside ALL DAY!!!

For My Boys...

Clear the noise -
How I need to hear Your voice.

Slow the pace -
Life's a journey, not a race.

Find the joy -
See His face in each small boy.

Live life wild -
Once again become a child.


Stooping low -
Much more "yes," and far less "no."

Hear His voice -
In the whisper, not the noise.

SEE, we must -
Life is vapor, we are dust.

Serving more -
Seeing Him, and not the chore.

Perspective brings -
Love for people, not the things.

* * * * *
May this be true for your Mama, my Loves.
More and more each day....

Push to Reset.

"The evening meal was being served...He got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. After that, He poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him... When He finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place..."

"...Do you understand what I have done for you? he asked them...."

"...Now that I, your Lord and Teacher have washed your feet, you also should wash one another's feet. I have set an example that you should do as I have done for you." ~ John 13. NIV

Jesus' last hours before going to the cross, He wraps a towel around, He stoops low, and He becomes servant to those He loves.

He gives His grace away.

Good perspective for this domestic life, yes?

This perpetual serving and cleaning and washing and re-doing every single thing that we just accomplished. This forever list of to-do's that will never ever be crossed off for good. This life of routine and rhythm, of bringing order from chaos, and of doing things that may never be noticed or appreciated or validated...

"The work we do is only our love for Jesus in action." ~ Mother Teresa.

In this endless cycle of service and washing - both figuratively and literally - I wonder if this is where the secret lies. If this is where the contentment comes from.

If we can somehow choose to see Him in whatever form of skin He comes to us in. And choose to show our love for Him through our daily service to others. Glamorous, though it may not be.

Because..."when service is unto people, the bones can grow weary, the frustration deep. Whenever man is made the center of things, he becomes the storm-center of trouble. The moment you think of serving people, you begin to have a notion that other people owe you something for your pains...You will begin to bargain for reward, to angle for applause." ~ Dorothy Sayers

And that's not the kind of lifestyle that He has called us to.

We have been blessed...so that we might "be the blessing." ~ Genesis 12:2
From the beginning of time, this was to be so.

Here -- in our homes, in our workplace, with our families, in our tiny spheres of influence...

"we can become a current in a river of grace that redeems the world! Here, we can become the blessing, a little life that multiplies joy, making the larger world a better place." ~ Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts.
"The Word became flesh and blood, and moved into the neighborhood. We saw the glory with our own eyes, the one-of-a-kind glory like Father like Son, generous inside and out, true from start to finish." ~ John 1:14, The Message.

"Communion comes in the common." ~ Ann Voskamp
And God can fill the common moments.
After all, that's what all of life is, in the first place....

Perspective.
Push to reset.
* * * * *
2486. Four men to practice on.
2487. Seeing Jesus in their skin.
2488. Toilets, dishes, floors, and food.
2489. Being humbled. Always.
2490. Examples ahead of me.
2491. Blessed to be a blessing.
2492. A husband who validates. Who sees.
2493. Three boys who bring meaning. Give purpose.
2494. Friends who give grace to me.
2495. Friends who journey life with me - raw and real.
2496. Learning, growing.
2497. Failing, Re-learning.
2498. Eyes to see. Ears to hear.
2499. This life I have been entrusted with.
2500. Three sets of eyes. Watching. Learning....

An Itty Bitty Week-end Ditty.

Family days
of fun and play.
Chasing all
our cares away.

Fires, coffee -
cozy fun.
Cribbage, Rack-O -
sledding runs.

Three small boys -
so wild and free.
Husband, cat -
3 chickens, ME.

Living fully -
loving deep.
Loud and rowdy -
little sleep.

Stretching, growing -
learning always.
Making mistakes -
saying "Sorry."

Little loves
that this week brings.
Always people -
Never things.

Letting go
and hugging tight.
Crazy, busy
kiss "Goodnight."

* * * * *
2472. Weekends and all that come with them.
2473. HOME with all that's inside.
2474. piece of plastic and snow - hours of fun.
2475. simple family days.
2476. fire, tea, and hot chocolate.
2477. more pictures of coffee mugs for Laurel! :0)
2478. Abby Linnell. And date nights.
2479. Grampy's & Grammy's who love my boys well.
2480. Seeing MY Mom & Dad.
2481. Black nails.
2482. Skunking Kev & Lew at Cribbage. Just sayin'.
2483. Rack-O and Skip-Bo with my oldest.
2484. Sorry & Connect 4 with my middle.
2485. Books & barn with my baby.